im in a rut. its official.
when did life become this uneventful for me? honestly, can i please go back to my 15 year old self who had friends and was healthy? i know this is going to sound exaggerated, but i truly feel i have no new friends here and my lungs are failing. i am optimistic, but i cannot get out of this rut. i absolutely cannot. why is it so difficult for me to just make friends or run on a treadmill for like 30 minutes instead of just sit here? its pathetic that i cannot be my normal self in what is supposed to be an environment for growth and spectacular fun? maybe today i am just tired and feel sick (which is true! another reason i am down...) and i need to go surfing and i am surrounded by my brains negativity. :////
im trying to look on the bright side but its getting to be a battle rather than being something that comes naturally.
life is being such a fail right now :((
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